Hi and assalamualaikum. Alhamdulillah masih lagi diberi peluang untuk berpuasa pada bulan Ramadhan 2017. So memang sangat lama aku tak update since Ramadhan last year. My life? Not so good. To be honest i missed my old life. I want my happiness back. How i wish i could turn back time when my life so fucking cool :'( I hate for all my stupid decision that i've ever made. I'm waiting for a miracle to change my whole life. So just straight about my post, this post is about my friendship. "DESTROY FRIENDSHIP"

Nur Aqilah Binti Arifin, orang yang pernah sama sama aku dulu. Orang yang pernah jadi orang paling penting dalam hidup aku. Orang yang selalu ada time susah senang aku. Dulu dia lah orang yang aku nak sangat jadikan pengapit bila aku kahwin nanti. Dulu dia lah orang yang aku berharap sangat dapat datang masa hari konvokesyen aku. Senang cerita, dia lah orang yang aku berharap sangat ada time hari hari penting dalam hidup aku. Tapi itu semua dulu....... Dulu dan takkan pernah jadi sekarang. Sepet, aku rindu friendship kita. Aku rindu kita yang dulu. Sounds like so fucking annoying right? But that's what i felt sepanjang kita tak bertegur. Sakit. Sakit sangat.. 

Guess what? why suddenly i post about her? yes, i saw her. I saw her today! Since 8 Jun 2016 untill 27 Mei 2017 we never met or terserempak dekat mana mana but today i saw her. Only God know how i feel on the that time. Bermacam macam perasaaan datang. I'm always wonder, it is all my fault? Yaa I admit that i'm the one who started first. I'm the one who ruined our friendship because i do something stupid for no reason and i'm really really sorry for that. I mean it! Manusia tak pernah lari daripada buat kerja bodoh. Yeah that's me! But kes tu dah settle right? Kau dah maafkan aku. Aku pun dah minta maaf. Kita berbaik balik and yaaaa i'm blessed for that.

And tak lama lepastu kita gaduh balik because you are so annoying, deadly selfish and fuckyou for doing this to me. I'm so mad. I'm so disappointed with you. Kau lebihkan boyfriend kau daripada aku. Did you still remember that i'm the one yang kenalkan korg? Kau ingat tak aku lah yang buat korg couple? Kau ingat tak aku orang yang susah payah hantar kau kehulu kehilir untuk jumpa boyfriend bodoh kau tu? Haihhh....  Aku terasa. Sangat... To be honest, i'm crying on the that day. But the worst part is there's no freaking "sorry" from your mouth. I just hate you and your boyfriend. Our friendship destroy because of him. I mean mostly because of him and YOU!!!

But now, aku redha. Aku redha kehilangan kawan kawan aku termasuk Fareza, Aini, Shazreen, Seha and Alia sebab diaorg bukan side aku. Maybe ada hikmah dengan semua ni. Sebab orang cakap "kadang-kadang Allah kenalkan seseorang tu sampai tahap tu ada sebab dan sebabnya mestilah terbaik untuk diri kita sendiri" yes memang terbaik for both of us. I'm so lucky to know you. I'm so lucky to have you as my bestfriend. I don't mind if you want to say anything about me. I'm really fine.

So for the end of this post, I want you to know that this post is for you. Whatever happend, I still miss you. I miss us. So much! I hope if one day you read this (because you know my blog), I hope you know how much i'm hurt :)) Take care of yourself. I wish you the best of luck for your future ex buddy.