This is my story :'x Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into pain. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this. Frustrated because i can't tell if it's real. Mad because i don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because i need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but i'll still love you , why did i soo stupid? :'x. Maybe they are right. Maybe i did get my hopes up too high. Maybe i was in over my head. Maybe i am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, i am tired of being alone. This time it's over i'm keeping my heart, i'm gonna be strong and not fall apart... it'll get better, i'll no longer cry... i'll be able to sleep, it won't hurt so bad and it won't hurt so deep! I would like to thank you, for showing me a part of myself that i have never seen. Yeah we were young and dumb, but it still was fun and i guess these things just tend to fall apart and i hope you feel the same :'x Do you want to know what my problem is? i will tell you what my problem is, I LOVE YOU! i love your name, i love the way you look at me, i love your gorgeous smile, i love the way you walk, i love your beautiful eyes, i love what you look like when you are asleep, i love the sound of your laugh, to hear your voice fills my entire heart with an indescribable feeling. i love the way i can be having the worst day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. I love how when you make me feel happy, but now .. there's nothing more ... nothing ='/ Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again. The truth of the matter is, i still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times i tell myself that i'm better off with out you, a part of me just won't let go. This is real , trust me , it's really hurts. It really does :'x
This is my story :'x Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into pain. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this. Frustrated because i can't tell if it's real. Mad because i don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because i need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but i'll still love you , why did i soo stupid? :'x. Maybe they are right. Maybe i did get my hopes up too high. Maybe i was in over my head. Maybe i am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, i am tired of being alone. This time it's over i'm keeping my heart, i'm gonna be strong and not fall apart... it'll get better, i'll no longer cry... i'll be able to sleep, it won't hurt so bad and it won't hurt so deep! I would like to thank you, for showing me a part of myself that i have never seen. Yeah we were young and dumb, but it still was fun and i guess these things just tend to fall apart and i hope you feel the same :'x Do you want to know what my problem is? i will tell you what my problem is, I LOVE YOU! i love your name, i love the way you look at me, i love your gorgeous smile, i love the way you walk, i love your beautiful eyes, i love what you look like when you are asleep, i love the sound of your laugh, to hear your voice fills my entire heart with an indescribable feeling. i love the way i can be having the worst day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. I love how when you make me feel happy, but now .. there's nothing more ... nothing ='/ Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again. The truth of the matter is, i still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times i tell myself that i'm better off with out you, a part of me just won't let go. This is real , trust me , it's really hurts. It really does :'x
